Happy 6th year Anniversary!

It's already January 12,2011, our 6th Year Wedding Anniversary. Its early dawn and I've been trying to write somthing signifiant for my "Hubba-hubba" because surely tomorrow I will be too busy with the kids and the cooking...and I just cannot afford to buy him anything. I don't know what were going to do together tomorrow??? I just wish he found time to plan everything out??? but it doesn't really matter much. I dont care anymore, as long as we get to do things together, it would just warm my heart enough.
so here goes nothing....

Dearest Hubba,

When it became "us" in 2003, I had no faith in love or myself. I wasnt expecting much either having been through much hurt in the past...I've got everything down and snap! just like that, my world was never the same...That's why when I turn to you and hold your sweeeeeet face and look searchingly into your eyes and say "Holy Shit, dear, can you believe it? we've been married for 6 years already???"

I find it amazing how 2 annoyingly weird couple can withst the odds together, and still manage not to slit each other’s throat?? When I look back and think of how far we've gone together, I can’t help but recall all the frustrations and regular fights we have, your unending agitations over my opinions, ideas and reactions that its almost impossible for us to make both ends meet, My ala CSI/007/NCIS/Criminal Minds investigations whenever I'm confused and flooded with doubts, the times I've been speechless crying over the imperfect cards and bouquet of roses you gave me because I was secretly expecting for something a little bit mushier, the different special birthday you come up with every time far better than I could ever come up with to show how much it matters to you to make me smile, or the time you said nothing at all as you pulled me to you for comfort when everything seem to fall apart...I learned to toughen up and learned to read the silence.

I won't say you complete me, because that would be utterly cheesy and untrue, but I would say that you have changed in more than 8 years we have known each other. I know it wasn’t your choice, you weren’t always like this...we've become/developed into this and we keep developing alongside each other, not stuck to each other but going the same direction.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
01-12-2011

The Letter na naging article because I never sent it...good grief!!

Due to insistent "ever kulit" demand by my friend Len.I have to re-publish the letter that eventually became an article, that I made that was accepted by Women’s Journal Magazine, a loooong looong time ago….10 years ago I bet???? I made this obnoxious letter that I didn’t even bother to send to the person who is the recipient of my unfathomable feelings…....call it “Young careless unrequited loves...” an attestation that nevertheless I’m not a tyrant… so are you! You’re perfectly fine!!! Life doesn’t stop when you fall...things happen to toughen you up for further complications ahead... so Len, kaya yan…

It’s not planned but it happens. One time or another, we all have gone through being wickedly scarily in love with someone…di ka nag-isa sa iyong kahibangan. Just let go… who knows, maybe you’re ought to be with somebody else or perhaps…soon maging kayo pa rin ng iyong “Edward Cullens” (Twilight ba??!!). A better a more responsible him only for you his “BELLA”. Just wait and let the tides bring you to where you would be the happiest…


WHAT I FEEL FOR YOU
You mean THE WORLD to me... you are the first thought in my head in the morning when I wake up; my last thought before I go to bed. You smile at me in my dreams... when you are sad, I feel sad, and when I see you smile, I feel incredible, like there is no other thing around and all I can see is you.

I love way you look at me, your gorgeous smile, your funny walk, your forever watch, your beautiful eyes the sound of your laugh..... I love the way you get mad, i love the way I don’t understand you at all. I love the way I can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how your presence makes me weak and vulnerable, I love you so profusely that it feels heavenly.

That’s my problem... You've got this girl, head over heels in love with you. She'd do anything for you. But for some reason, you don't want to see that. You know it's there, but you just won’t accept it so you try to make her go away. -- Maybe this girl is soooo perfect for you and that really scares the hell out of you, doesn't it?

IT'S REALITY...and sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing
that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.
In this weird twisted way, I know you miss me liking you, being the "doormat" who's always waiting for you... not because I want to believe it's true, but because you’ll never find a girl that can put up with you like I did; you'll never find a girl who will care as much as I did, because no one will ever come to waste all their love on someone like you, like I did.

BUT THEN AGAIN....
I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you...How good you look when you smile. I've memorized your face & the way that you look at me..
How much I love your laugh that I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation; laughing at funny things that you said or did..
I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine.. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together & even though nothing will come out of this....its hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while some good things never last.

Hello!! I’m Donna Marie A. Metran-Escosora , a 33-year-old Filipina former government employee and now a full time home-maker. I am a mommy to Yoki mg 5-year-old ever-active son and to Baby Andy my 8-month-old son who still breastfeeds. I’m “THE WIFE” of Noel Escosora for more than five years now. My small family is the center of my life and I would give anything just to make them happy.

One more chance

ONE MORE CHANCE BY PIOLO PASCUAL
You say it’s over
I say we’ve just begun
‘Coz it ain’t forever
Until our lives are done
I know I did some things
That I never should
I’d undo them if I could
I’d turn my life around for you
Anything you’d ask me to…
Just tell me…
What must I do to make you want to stay
And take the hurt away
And leave it all to yesterday?
What can I say to make you change your mind?
To have the chance to turn the hands of time
Back to the days when you were mine?
Just give one more chance for one last time.
I won’t deny it
I know that I’ve done wrong
But you have to admit it
This love is just too strong
To just fade away into the night
Without putting up a fight
We can make it all alright
If we just give it on more try…
So…
What must I do to make you want to stay
And take the hurt away
And leave it all to yesterday?
What can i say to make you change your mind?
To have the chance to turn the hands of time
Back to the days when you were mine?
Just give one more chance for one last time…
And what can i say to make you change your mind
To have the chance to turn the hands of time
Back to the days when you were mine?
Just give one more chance for one last time.
Just one more kiss to last a lifetime
One more chance for ono last time.

Hello!! I’m Donna Marie A. Metran-Escosora , a 33-year-old Filipina former government employee and now a full time home-maker. I am a mommy to Yoki mg 5-year-old ever-active son and to Baby Andy my 8-month-old son who still breastfeeds. I’m “THE WIFE” of Noel Escosora for more than five years now. My small family is the center of my life and I would give anything just to make them happy.

Hello!! I’m Donna Marie A. Metran-Escosora , a 33-year-old Filipina former government employee and now a full time home-maker. I am a mommy to Yoki mg 5-year-old ever-active son and to Baby Andy my 8-month-old son who still breastfeeds. I’m “THE WIFE” of Noel Escosora for more than five years now. My small family is the center of my life and I would give anything just to make them happy.

Weight gain and Hopes & Dreams

The main reason why I’m not gaining too much weight is because I am breastfeeding round the clock and not getting any sleep at all. Being a human pacifier is fine but I really wish I could at least sleep for more than three hours a day. Even a straight, uninterrupted two hours will do.
And since we’re talking about my “hopes and dreams”, why not list them all?
1. A bath longer than 5 minutes with soft music of either Michael Buble` or Sound track of Sleepless in Seattle.
2. A relaxing full body massage that will really relax me, not make me wonder if Dominic Andrew M. Escosora is crying during my massage
3. Some really good and sinful, creamy soup with melted cheese on top.
4. To wear an outfit that is not breastfeeding friendly
5. Not just uninterrupted sleep but have a much deserved sleep-in during weekends