Last February 24, 2010 I gave bith to a bouncy baby boy of 6.5 pounds after 22 hours of painful labor. The whole process is surreal, from beginning to end, and I personally often lost track of the fact that, at the end of this overwhelming experience, would be the start of the REAL overwhelming motherhood. I remember feeling terrified at the thought of having a third pregnancy and hoping that this time there would be no difficulties, complications and pain. I needed to prepare myself and let a small fetus take over my body. It's like my body would no longer be my own for almost a year. I wasn't sure if I could handle this that I could handle it, and it scared me to death.third baby after I lost the 2nd one.
It was 9 months of overwhelming exhaustion, despite barely doing a thing. in my first three months of my pregnancy.
I can't say I instantly bonded to them - I think I was too overwhelmed - but within 24 hours, I could barely remember life without them.
And once they were no longer inside me, I felt strangely alone for the first time in ages.
